I cant sleep now, all of a sudden I miss dad to the ultimate that I guess I'll gonna dream of him again tonight. If only you are still here you would be lying on bed calling me to do this and that and making my night a sleepless one. Waking me up in the middle of the night to ask me to count how much money is left on your wallet. So cute thou. Daddy I really miss you so much so much. If only you are really here, IF..... You made me trouble free. With you around it completes my life. You dote on me the most, you love me the most. Honestly, do you really know how much I miss you all these while???


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Happy 21st to my gorgeous Sis! May your life filled with as many rainbow as the cake you've on your birthday and as bright as the candles on your cake!



A million words would not bring you back, I know cuz I've tried and neither a million tears, I know I've cried.

I miss you Dad.

The picture above was taken almost close to 2 years ago on 2010 cny when dad was still around.

&Now, I wonder when was the last time the Peh's family sat down together and have gathering or once every few weeks the cousins will meet up for visiting the kids and brought them out to play, I guess they have all grown up. Miss lil Kelvin &javier! This late afternoon I received a text updating grandpa's condition, it hurts totally. Having to undergo chemotherapy &operation aftermath to remove the tumor. Why do he have to suffer? I heard from mom it's kinda pain. :( sighhhhhh

Had a great celebration along with the awesome family members and friends of sis, party starts from 7pm till 11pm @grassroots club! Woke up early to prepare myself and cab over there early to help out for sis. Upon seeing all the photos sis looks so gorgeous for the first time 18 years of my life, hehe. After the celebrations, we planned to go drinking and went to sin rak thai, an twinny working place! 5 of us with a tower &martell. Ok, it's my virgin out drinking with sis. And she's really the clown of the day making everyone of us laughing! The guys was weak too! Hehe. Anw, real awesome day drinking with the virgins! :D probably we'll head over there somewhere before I fly as there are balance, all thanks to the drunkard that we have to leave so early like 4am plus..
can you spot the twinny?

It marks exactly 10 days before I leave the land of smile, thoughts of that really brightens my day and can't wait for it to arrive! Almost all done for my winter loots but still short of my leather gloves &snow cap. I'm so angry with myself! The gloves that I wan at new look is all left with the brown instead of the black that I wanted, so now I didn't bought any. I prefer the leather gloves than those knitted kind, it's much nice thou. And uniqulo snowcap left with those ugly one, it taught me a lesson to get everything immediately without second thoughts before it ended up this way again! T.T to the readers of mine, I got 1 of my jackets at New Look! It's having sales now, quite worth buying, be free to drop by there! New look has always been my shopping paradise, the last time I shop there was when I went to get my heels! And thats pretty long ago.. Say tune!

Yes, they may looks like any ordinary human but in the inside they are someone who's so scary that it made me felt as though they have got a split personality. And despite all of that, still, they are nice people too.


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She makes the perfect one, 5 years back &5 years down,



Back to the cruel reality! Having to go work is never a problem. But to add on, having to go night classes every Tuesday and Thursday starting from today and thats the biggest problem I'll ever face. First day of class, it simply 1 word to describe everything, "lousy". The aircon was down, the classroom was packed, the teacher run out of study guide for the students, the teacher speak so fast that she literally completed 1 whole topic within probably 2 hours? On top of all this shits, to add on is all of this makes me even more tired to even continue. But still I managed to struggle through that 3 hours lesson! Making my way back home, I feel as though I can sleep and walk at the same time and it hits my mind to come into my blog, probably those spammers would give me a good laugh and make me energetic before I reach home. To my disappointment all of the spammers go missing. I sincerely hope you people will come back, hehe! Enlighten my night a lil after a long tiring day, so now you know all this jokes you people create really helps me rather than pulling me down into anger. :D

My lovable girls, happy to see them all!



First thing first, happy 18th birthday my dearest Zolaine Ng & happy 19th birthday my darling poopoochen! May all the dreams come true &may happiness stay within you girls! As promised to have dinner with the birthday girl, Daniel drove me over to kovan just for that emi cake shop cup cakes that I've in mind to get for my jiejie. Thanks! And we headed over to hgplaza for sushi. Aftermath, we headed over to O bar. I would just sit down quietly and not drinking anything, hehe. And left shortly after. :) photos will be coming up soon. It's all stored in my camera. I've a very good boss which wan me to stay away from work for another 1 more day whereby I've fully recovered alr. I'm staying home eat and sleep till so sickening alr. And are looking forward to work this time round. :D

It's indeed, birds of the same feather flock together. Stop acting, it's really too fake.

Hello people, I'm half back on track.
Woke up early today as I slept early ytd. Headed to town alone and had a good scolding from my girlfriend, hehe. She's so adorable! She say I'm totally insane for going to town all alone, lol. Anw, had a great Saturday with the darling girls today @STUDIO M HOTEL. Okay, my wish is granted by poopoochen! Hehe. Catered food in, the place was rather disappointing as I thought it would be more spacious. But still, we managed to bring up to 15-20 people in the room. End my day pretty early!

Tadah,


that's my home for the past 4D3N @CGH. And finally today I'm able to be discharged. It calls for a celebration! Hehe, jk. All the great effort should be shown out to my boss &lady boss for helping out with every single things. And of cuz appreciation to those who came, thanks a million! :) am someone who express it out, nevertheless still very grateful for the people who have sleepless night accompanying me! ^^

Passerby: oh well. You can continue to type cuz it doesn't affect me, and I would tell you, quit acting. You know who you are! And yes, my dad own $, my mom sold off the 4 room flats and now we are staying at 2 room flat, I don't think anything is wrong. Least my mom is a brave wife, a brave mommy and for that I salute her! I pity you! I think you are just envious of what my mom had did 2 years ago. I guess a pity your parents can never be like my mom! :) I don't think it's any shameless to be staying in 2 room flats. But I would tell you thanks for reminding me of this and made me so proud of my mum. Well well well, which part did I ever started off with saying I'm so called rich? Lol. You're just thinking too much dear. So what if I doesn't click along with his BRO exs gf. Just be more specific uh. Go straight to the name. Your joke is definitely smth for me to brighten up my sickness.

Once again, thanks all.

My bitchy, <3 <3



Just finish my dinner quite not long ago with lady boss &boss. Probably 1/2 an hour ago? The pumpkin prawn roll is mad awesome! Shall bring mom there this weekend if I'm free(: Left office only at 10pm! Super tired I swear. And feeling very headache now seriously. Gotta sleep now otherwise I can feel that I'll overslept and miss my bus tmr!

I didn't know my blog is on high populations that's even enemy can be my readers, that's pretty good! :) help to click my nuffnangs to earn some money too oh. To whoever it may concern, it doesn't matter who you are, continue provoke me, I don't feel any pinch, you can say how much I don't deserve anyone love and so on. I just wanna tell you that if you ever wanna sue me, go ahead but pls make sure you'll sue me till I'm at my worst cuz I'll make sure that my medical report, photos &evidence are enough to sue him for the best you would ever get. Just a gentle reminder for you. I've not even offended you, but you started it, then by all means. :D I would just take it that after a long tiring day of work coming home looking at my tagboard for entertaining. Ok, till here. Byee

Last night before I ended my day had a last min catch catch uo with ah an, along w Sis &my girlfriend, along with W &my dearest bitchy. Gathered at my house downstairs &off we go! :) quite much of a mixture group, but nevertheless, the laughters never seems to end all thanks to W! Hehe. We went to the loyang there for praying &changi airport for burger king breakfast. My treat! Haha, 6 meal. All on me, hehe. Ended our day @5am. Slept for like 5 hours and I woke up headed to Chinatown with mommy love to get my winter wear. Dam shagg, non catch my eye. The one that catch my eye are too thin for the weather there but still I got it. Hopefully I won't freeze to death, lol. And best thing is, I've got my boots alr! Mad happy. Leopard prints! :D alright, till here.


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Ready to go out with mom &bro. (:




It's illegal to abuse another person, physically, emotionally and verbally. For your actions that you've done, be a man to take up your responsibility.
Today, I finally took the courage to tell mom about everything &have discuss what we'll do next, it has been bottling up in my heart that it's a nightmare.

Thanks mom for always be there! You're the best I would ever find :D

Yo dude, it's pretty obvious it's referring to me, if it isn't probably I'm paranoid, but from my point of view, it's absolutely way too obvious that it's referring to me. However, I would like you to get the facts cleared, whichever the birthday card I gave to whoever, if he doesn't have the heart, he wouldn't even teared upon receiving it and much less wait till it was dump into the garbage chute only few days back. Funny isn't it? Lol. Been a year he kept it. Don't you think you should seriously give a thought about everything before mentioning me? Firstly, if you're going to say 101 things about me, I'm going to have double of the facts to tell you. For fear, you'll lose out to me if you're gonna compare me to his past. I've confident, what do you have? You've nothing but 1 sentence that everyone would phrase you, "a women which is married with 2 kids", &where's your level of maturity? I know whats on your mind right now, you must be thinking, I'm just an outsider what right do I have to judge and why am I interferring your personal life that much. But well, what I am saying are just the facts, and you're just not accepting the reality, you're just trying to escape it, give it some thoughts to what I've said. You are 21 year old and yet acting like an 12 year old girl, thats really pathetic chu know? Shouldn't you know how to handle things in a more appropriate way. I won't wan to put it too nasty. Otherwise you'll be too surprised to know that why I can fish so much info. ;)

Aww, I can't wait to go aboard in another 27 days, real excited! Witnessing the beautiful scenery over there. :D

Time checked, 1am. I can't sleep, I'm suppose to sleep by now cuz I'm really tired. The moment I reached home at 10pm I was lying dead on the sofa and press my phone till I fall asleep and quickly went to bath. And now cuz I'm not in the mood, I feel so not sleepy anymore. Thank goodness although girlfriend are asleep now but I've the girls to keep me through on whatsapp. I feel like breaking down. And I sense that I'm gonna miss the bus tmr, sigh...


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Its getting nearer and nearer, Should I or not

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1 more month to go, I can't wait to go! Mom say I very kiasu leh, go winter nia so happy until like that. It's simple what, if she bought me there before I wouldn't have to feel so anxious for it, right?! Ok, whatever. I've spent my whole PH staying home doing nothing and conclusion is to go online finding sweater, and pass by this shop "American Eagle'', but I wonder if it's a trusted website as it's not local. I really love this so extremely much, my taste not bad hor, hehe. And I wonder how long does it takes to arrive? As I've only estimated 2-3 weeks of waiting time for them. So sad! :(

Its 4am in the morning. Omg, I really wonder when was the last time I really stay out late when I didn't care much about work, I overnight at whoever house it is, I always go out play till late late and come home feeling tired and will normally just knock off on the bed and will never be able to sleep peacefully cuz there'll be someone whining away to wake me up to bath. I really wonder, how long have I last done all these? To my surprise, it has really been quite sometimes. :) actually, I pretty much like staying at home alot. It's just if I am able to have my own room, I'll really love it even more. The feeling is unexplainable cuz for long I've always have a bedroom of my own. But due to many reasons that we have to squeeze all in a room, honest speaking, I aren't very happy about it. But I'll have my own bed soon even thou there won't be own bedroom! ;)
This late noon headed out to chan's brother to book our tickets to china! I'm really happy! Basically its all about scenery. I can't imagine I've waited for so long to go somewhere winter. I don't ask for much of shoppings cuz it will all be winter wear which isn't necessary for me to buy. Am really looking forward to December! I've always wanted to go somewhere winter. I can't imagine I put onto so many cloths and coax. Hehe! Really excited for it. I'm gonna bring my iphone, gonna bring my lappy, gonna bring my camera &cosmetic. Still wondering if I should get a camera like dslr? So heavy to carry it around, hopefully I'll just make do with my camera.. Hopefully! I feel like I'm bringing half of property over, lol. Started to haunt for those thick jacket, gloves &snow cap. Sadly I'll have to get a new boots as mom told me that the old one she has throw it away when we moved house! ;( many things has either being given away or threw it away. Even those collection of my minnie /Mickey. At least 3 of them was been given away, it's a huge one fyi. I was so mad the other time. But come to think of it, I've no space for them too T.T

3 more days.


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Hello earthing, it's like 3.30am right now. This late afternoon got myself prepared and bus over to FEP to meet girlfriend! Make our way to do the necessary stuffs and my turn to shop for birthday present for sis and darling girl. I really have a hard time finding. Ended up at MBS with a LV belt for sis 21st. It really burn a hole in my pocket. I'm still haunting for darling girl birthday present which is coming in less than 2 weeks time. I'm happy girl, cuz finally after opening for sucha long time, I stepped into MBS. Thou, it wasn't much time to shop as we reached only at probably about 10pm. The best part of the day is we chilled at coffee bean till 2am and I seriously love the time spent heart to heart talk like this. We were rewinding back on the good old days we met and etc. I can't really rmb, hehe. Thats really bad, I know. But the worst part is, I told myself, never to get invovled with a guy who's violent. Cuz I can frankly tell you, it's real hard to get rid of it which I've truly went through whole lot of shits on a violent guy. I asked myself almost everytime, how on earth did I go through the 2 bloody years?! I can't understand myself truly why I've wasted dam bloody 2 years of my time on such guy, IF only I took all the advise, I wouldn't have to suffer so much within that 2 years. That's really bad. But no matter how worst the situation is, I know Mom has really been there all the while, and for that, thank you Mom! Okay, for whatever reasons it is, I've left him for good. And well, that's how time has past, been more than a year and I find my life has been better. But it was raining cats &dogs, didn't know till we went out to wait for a cab.. I've got a awesome bro came down to pass me an umbrella at 2.30am in the midnight, too awesome! Love him to bits. :D

4 more days.

Oh well, weekend is here again! Its going to be another long weekend! But I'm very packed with alot of stuffs. November and December is really a busy month! As well as the month that my pocket will have a big hole for all the lovely birthdays! I just feel like ranting how much I wanna sit aeroplane like before every year even if it's the nearest trip to Bangkok. I feel so much fortunate back then, I travel at least once a year when I was much younger. Mom just have to arrange and we'll just tag along, but now....... Due to all the work schedule and so on, I've not even take an aeroplane out of anywhere yet. Which I really wish to go somewhere nice for scenery &winter as well as some lil' shopping will do. Okay, whatever. It sucks. At first it was mom who can't apply leave to go Taiwan early this year. Now that she can, I can't. And now that we wanted to go Taiwan this dec but it was winter at there but my motive of gg was to travel and see for some nice scenery, food and most important the loots that I'll whack back! I can't even rmb I went there years back which mom kept reminding me of. So since it's winter there it means there won't be much cloths to be bought. I dropped that idea even thou I wan to go somewhere that's cold cuz I hardly would be able to dress up in those boots that's I have which if I were to wear in Singapore I'll be pretty attractive, lol. So you see, it's hard to even travel out of town as a family even if it's just a short few days. That sucks totally! But on a happier note, mom have booked cruise next year January on the CNY. I guess my family culture for CNY is to stay out of Singapore. Its not smth good either. Cuz this has been a yearly routine for dk how many years back. Cuz my mom don't click well with dad side. And for that, we don't really celebrate with them. The only time I see the whole family sitting down for steamboat with dad's side and go ahgong's house bai nian was only once. Ever since, we never anymore. It's pretty sad thou. But well, now that dad has deceased, it become more meaningless, does it? And furthermore mom side totally has no one expect for my 2 uncles. So yeah, tell me what's celebrating of CNY which for me I think it simply means all the family gathers together regardless of what. Before dad deceased the cousins and long distance cousin would always hang out together, sharing heart to heart talks, going jb together, So now people you know, M**** KILLS. But still once in awhile I miss them quite alot. ;)
To add on to 1 more even happier note is: I'm getting a new bed frame, double decker I guess by next week! Real happy! Bro and my neck hasn't been good recently. Can you really imagine 3 of us sharing a king size bed? Which I can hardly turn left /right honestly. And also for me, due to budget wise, I just got something cheaper. Hehe!


5 more days.

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Sometimes by passing by my new feeds I asked myself, does she still take me as a friend or just someone when she need to talk to then she'll contact me? It made me click on her profile, stopped there for quite sometimes and made me feel like tearing. Cuz it made me thought of what she once did &lied to me. But I dont know why once in awhile I'll still miss her and hoping she would take the effort and date me out. Although we're still friends now! :) We started as a stranger, hi-bye friend, more than a hi-bye friend and we became good. We shop tgt, we eat tgt, we had our talks tgt, we go rounding tgt, we do what I would do with as a close friend of mine. But does she think that way too? Well. That's life. This person will never happened to pass by here nor know I'm referring to her... Anw I guess I treated her too well despite what she've done behind my back. Friends around me know whatever you give me, I'll give you back double of what you've given me. Whoever has tasted what I done back before y'll know! And I remember I once told 1 of my friend never to be back with someone who take challenge with you over a guy. This is never a true friend. And yet, this person I'm talking is someone I forgive. How silly isn't it. :D

8 more days..

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